2 Poems (Sea Foam Mag)
9/18/2017
I.
I Am Here
Which means: I’m Not There
You only live 9 times–in seven year cycles.
At least that’s how I feel about it.
II.
I am Factory.
I am Vanguard.
I am Vision, embodying Volume.
I am Window.
Cage. I am Cage. I am in a cage. I am a cage.
I am Vision because I am Cage.
I am Window as I am Cage; Factory, Volume, Vanguard.
Earth behaving as water.
Hot spring.
Hiding from this warm and generous host.
There is shelter and comfort should you seek it.
Something, something.
Something. Someone.
A person; steadfast, domestic.
Hiding from stability in any setting.
She is Cage; Steadfast, Domestic, Volume.
Bones (Literary Kitchen)
The day I realized I might not have bones, I sat and scratched and rubbed and picked at the skin on my hands until they were raw and needed to be bandaged. Still, I found no bones. For that matter, there was no blood.
To find the blood I had to cut deeper. There’s a difference between picking and scratching—and cutting. Cutting can cut to the bone. It will find blood below the surface.
The cat was telepathically communicating with me about the football on the TV. I don’t like football, I was concerned about finding my bones.
I knew we weren’t all the same.
I don’t have bones. I have to cut deep to find blood. I’m telepathic.
When I close my eyes I can feel all my molecules. My molecules are stardust.
All molecules are simply stardust, but most people can’t feel that.
Most people don’t know, or they don’t want to know. I know.
Stardust is the matter of the universe. It’s in everything. It is everything.
I might not have bones, but at least I know that I’m stardust.
I know it, I live it. I am.
Lucien is confused, “Yes, you have bones. Yes, you have blood. You’re alive.”
I’m only as alive as millions of years of stardust made from dinosaurs and sea creatures.
Returning to the universe and becoming something again, re-comprised, reconstituted, recycled stardust.
How do I come together like this, and fall apart at the same time?
Is there a moment between this and stardust becomes me, even fleetingly?
9/18/2017
I.
I Am Here
Which means: I’m Not There
You only live 9 times–in seven year cycles.
At least that’s how I feel about it.
II.
I am Factory.
I am Vanguard.
I am Vision, embodying Volume.
I am Window.
Cage. I am Cage. I am in a cage. I am a cage.
I am Vision because I am Cage.
I am Window as I am Cage; Factory, Volume, Vanguard.
Earth behaving as water.
Hot spring.
Hiding from this warm and generous host.
There is shelter and comfort should you seek it.
Something, something.
Something. Someone.
A person; steadfast, domestic.
Hiding from stability in any setting.
She is Cage; Steadfast, Domestic, Volume.
Bones (Literary Kitchen)
The day I realized I might not have bones, I sat and scratched and rubbed and picked at the skin on my hands until they were raw and needed to be bandaged. Still, I found no bones. For that matter, there was no blood.
To find the blood I had to cut deeper. There’s a difference between picking and scratching—and cutting. Cutting can cut to the bone. It will find blood below the surface.
The cat was telepathically communicating with me about the football on the TV. I don’t like football, I was concerned about finding my bones.
I knew we weren’t all the same.
I don’t have bones. I have to cut deep to find blood. I’m telepathic.
When I close my eyes I can feel all my molecules. My molecules are stardust.
All molecules are simply stardust, but most people can’t feel that.
Most people don’t know, or they don’t want to know. I know.
Stardust is the matter of the universe. It’s in everything. It is everything.
I might not have bones, but at least I know that I’m stardust.
I know it, I live it. I am.
Lucien is confused, “Yes, you have bones. Yes, you have blood. You’re alive.”
I’m only as alive as millions of years of stardust made from dinosaurs and sea creatures.
Returning to the universe and becoming something again, re-comprised, reconstituted, recycled stardust.
How do I come together like this, and fall apart at the same time?
Is there a moment between this and stardust becomes me, even fleetingly?
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Don’t Leave Your Friends Behind: Concrete Ways to Support Families in Social Justice Movements and Communities Ed. China Martens and Victoria Law. PM Press, 2012.
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Revolutionary Mothering: Love on the Frontlines Eds. China Martens, Alexis Pauline Gumbs, Mai’a Williams. PM Press, 2016.
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links:
The “Good Mother” vs. the “Other” Mother The Girl-Mom. Journal of the Association for Research on Mothering Vol 9, No 1 (2007): 20-28
Chronicle of a Disappearance: The Sacred and The Mundane. Offscreen.com Vol. 11, No 15 (2007)
From Cop Killer to Killer Cop: Black Masculinities in Jamaican Cinema. Offscreen. com Vol 12, No 6 (2008)
Re)covering Oka: Alanis Obomsawin’s Representation of the Crisis at Oka. Offscreen.com Vol 14, No 3 (2010)
Telluride Film Festival Report. Synoptique: An Online Journal of Film and Moving Image Studies. Vol 2, No 1 (2012)
All in the Game: Mapping and making sense of the urban through sound, language, and codes on HBO’s The Wire. (2013)
Bones. Literary Kitchen (2014)
Shirley Knight and the Performance of Gendered Race in Dutchman. Offscreen.com Vol 19, No 1 (2015)
2 Poems. Sea Foam Mag (2017)
Chronicle of a Disappearance: The Sacred and The Mundane. Offscreen.com Vol. 11, No 15 (2007)
From Cop Killer to Killer Cop: Black Masculinities in Jamaican Cinema. Offscreen. com Vol 12, No 6 (2008)
Re)covering Oka: Alanis Obomsawin’s Representation of the Crisis at Oka. Offscreen.com Vol 14, No 3 (2010)
Telluride Film Festival Report. Synoptique: An Online Journal of Film and Moving Image Studies. Vol 2, No 1 (2012)
All in the Game: Mapping and making sense of the urban through sound, language, and codes on HBO’s The Wire. (2013)
Bones. Literary Kitchen (2014)
Shirley Knight and the Performance of Gendered Race in Dutchman. Offscreen.com Vol 19, No 1 (2015)
2 Poems. Sea Foam Mag (2017)
other work:
Publications
Girl-Mom in Revolutionary Mothering: Love on the Frontlines Eds. China Martens, Alexis Pauline Gumbs, Mai’a Williams. PM Press, 2016.
Shirley Knight and the Performance of Gendered Race in Dutchman in Offscreen 19:1 June 2015.
Stigmama.com current regular contributor Ed. Walker Karraa. 2015.
Spill Your Thoughts on the Floor in HipMama Magazine Ed. Ariel Gore No. 56 Fall, 2014.
Bones in Literary Kitchen Ed. Ariel Gore www.literarykitchen.com March 31, 2014.
Synoptique: An On-line Journal of Film and Moving Image Studies managing co-editor/contributor 2010-2013.
Telluride Film Festival report in Synoptique: An On-line Journal of Film and Moving Image Studies 2:1 March, 2013.
Don’t Leave Your Mental Health Behind in Don’t Leave Your Friends Behind: Concrete Ways to Support Families in Social Justice Movements and Communities Ed. China Martens and Victoria Law. PM Press, 2012.
(Re)Covering Oka: Alanis Obomsawin’s Representation of the Crisis at Oka in Offscreen 14:3 March, 2010.
From Cop Killer to Killer Cop: Black Masculinities in Jamaican Cinema in Offscreen "From All Over" 12:6 June, 2008.
Chronicle of a Disappearance: The Sacred and The Mundane in Offscreen "Issues of Representation" 11:5 May, 2007.
My Little Eye (12 regular columns) in SEE Magazine Ed.Paul Matwychuk April-September, 2008.
The "Good Mother" vs. The "Other" Mother: The Girl-Mom in Association for Research on Mothering Journal Ed. Andrea O'Reilly "Young Mothers" 9:1 York UP Spring/Summer, 2007. (published as Lindsey Rock)
Queer Horror/Unusual Desires in May in Ax Wound Zine November, 2008.
Mama Ain't No Samurai Ed. Ariel Gore in HipMama Spring, 2007. (as Lindsey Campbell-Rock)
My (online) Community in Off Our Backs January, 2006. (as Lindsey Rock)
Sunny Days (a quarterly column) in Birth Issues The Associaton for Safe Alternative in Childbirth 2003-2007. (as Lindsey Campbell-Rock)
Birth Issues co-editor/contributor 2003-2008. (as Lindsey Campbell-Rock)
Presentations/Conferences
FSAC Annual Conference May 31- June 2 2016. “All in the Game: Making sense of language and codes on HBO’s The Wire” (Calgary, Alberta)
iHuman October 14, 2014. “Intro to DIY Podcasting” (Edmonton, Alberta)
FSAC Annual Conference June 2-4 2015. “Sound and Rendering the City on HBO’s The Wire” (University of Ottawa)
FSAC Graduate Colloquium “Transitions and Translations” March 1-3 2013. “All In the Game: making sense of language and codes on HBO’s The Wire” (Concordia University, Montreal, Quebec)
CGFSSA Symposium January 24 2013. “Listening to The Wire” (Concordia University, Montreal, Quebec)
Intersections Graduate Conference “Vitals, Vital Signs, & Vitality in Addressing Our Changing World,” March 4-5 2011. “All in the Game: Representations of post-9/11 America in HBO’s The Wire” (Ryerson University, Toronto, Ontario)
Maggie Tree December 2007. “Writing the Grotesque Body: or, Pathologize This!” video art: 13mins (Edmonton, Alberta)
NextFest, June 2007. “Writing the Grotesque Body: or, Pathologize This!” video art: 13mins (Edmonton, Alberta)
Middle Eastern and African Studies Conference. February 2007. "On: At 5 in the Afternoon” (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Women’s Studies: Feminist Popular Culture, guest lecturer March 2007. “Feminism, Riot Grrls and Zine Culture” for Dr. Heather Tapley (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Association for Research on Mothering, “Young Mothers” May 2006. "Discourses of the Good Mother" (York University, Toronto, Ontario)
Association for Research on Mothering, “Young Mothers” May 2006. “Girl-Mom” a play reading (York University, Toronto)
Women's Studies Undergraduate Association, “Feminisms in the Third Wave” May 2006.
"Girl-Mom” a play reading (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Women's Studies Undergraduate Association, “Feminisms in the Third Wave” May 2006.
"Discourses of the Good Mother" (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Groups and Associations
GELA Greater Edmonton Library Association (current)
FLIF Future Librarians for Intellectual Freedom, Social Media Coordinator (2014-2018)
FIP Forum for Information Professionals, Committee Marketing Coordinator (2014-2018)
LISSA Library and Information Studies Student Association (2014-2018)
CLA Canadian Library Association (2014-2018)
FSAC Film Studies Association of Canada (2009-2017)
Girl-Mom in Revolutionary Mothering: Love on the Frontlines Eds. China Martens, Alexis Pauline Gumbs, Mai’a Williams. PM Press, 2016.
Shirley Knight and the Performance of Gendered Race in Dutchman in Offscreen 19:1 June 2015.
Stigmama.com current regular contributor Ed. Walker Karraa. 2015.
Spill Your Thoughts on the Floor in HipMama Magazine Ed. Ariel Gore No. 56 Fall, 2014.
Bones in Literary Kitchen Ed. Ariel Gore www.literarykitchen.com March 31, 2014.
Synoptique: An On-line Journal of Film and Moving Image Studies managing co-editor/contributor 2010-2013.
Telluride Film Festival report in Synoptique: An On-line Journal of Film and Moving Image Studies 2:1 March, 2013.
Don’t Leave Your Mental Health Behind in Don’t Leave Your Friends Behind: Concrete Ways to Support Families in Social Justice Movements and Communities Ed. China Martens and Victoria Law. PM Press, 2012.
(Re)Covering Oka: Alanis Obomsawin’s Representation of the Crisis at Oka in Offscreen 14:3 March, 2010.
From Cop Killer to Killer Cop: Black Masculinities in Jamaican Cinema in Offscreen "From All Over" 12:6 June, 2008.
Chronicle of a Disappearance: The Sacred and The Mundane in Offscreen "Issues of Representation" 11:5 May, 2007.
My Little Eye (12 regular columns) in SEE Magazine Ed.Paul Matwychuk April-September, 2008.
The "Good Mother" vs. The "Other" Mother: The Girl-Mom in Association for Research on Mothering Journal Ed. Andrea O'Reilly "Young Mothers" 9:1 York UP Spring/Summer, 2007. (published as Lindsey Rock)
Queer Horror/Unusual Desires in May in Ax Wound Zine November, 2008.
Mama Ain't No Samurai Ed. Ariel Gore in HipMama Spring, 2007. (as Lindsey Campbell-Rock)
My (online) Community in Off Our Backs January, 2006. (as Lindsey Rock)
Sunny Days (a quarterly column) in Birth Issues The Associaton for Safe Alternative in Childbirth 2003-2007. (as Lindsey Campbell-Rock)
Birth Issues co-editor/contributor 2003-2008. (as Lindsey Campbell-Rock)
Presentations/Conferences
FSAC Annual Conference May 31- June 2 2016. “All in the Game: Making sense of language and codes on HBO’s The Wire” (Calgary, Alberta)
iHuman October 14, 2014. “Intro to DIY Podcasting” (Edmonton, Alberta)
FSAC Annual Conference June 2-4 2015. “Sound and Rendering the City on HBO’s The Wire” (University of Ottawa)
FSAC Graduate Colloquium “Transitions and Translations” March 1-3 2013. “All In the Game: making sense of language and codes on HBO’s The Wire” (Concordia University, Montreal, Quebec)
CGFSSA Symposium January 24 2013. “Listening to The Wire” (Concordia University, Montreal, Quebec)
Intersections Graduate Conference “Vitals, Vital Signs, & Vitality in Addressing Our Changing World,” March 4-5 2011. “All in the Game: Representations of post-9/11 America in HBO’s The Wire” (Ryerson University, Toronto, Ontario)
Maggie Tree December 2007. “Writing the Grotesque Body: or, Pathologize This!” video art: 13mins (Edmonton, Alberta)
NextFest, June 2007. “Writing the Grotesque Body: or, Pathologize This!” video art: 13mins (Edmonton, Alberta)
Middle Eastern and African Studies Conference. February 2007. "On: At 5 in the Afternoon” (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Women’s Studies: Feminist Popular Culture, guest lecturer March 2007. “Feminism, Riot Grrls and Zine Culture” for Dr. Heather Tapley (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Association for Research on Mothering, “Young Mothers” May 2006. "Discourses of the Good Mother" (York University, Toronto, Ontario)
Association for Research on Mothering, “Young Mothers” May 2006. “Girl-Mom” a play reading (York University, Toronto)
Women's Studies Undergraduate Association, “Feminisms in the Third Wave” May 2006.
"Girl-Mom” a play reading (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Women's Studies Undergraduate Association, “Feminisms in the Third Wave” May 2006.
"Discourses of the Good Mother" (University of Alberta, Edmonton, Alberta)
Groups and Associations
GELA Greater Edmonton Library Association (current)
FLIF Future Librarians for Intellectual Freedom, Social Media Coordinator (2014-2018)
FIP Forum for Information Professionals, Committee Marketing Coordinator (2014-2018)
LISSA Library and Information Studies Student Association (2014-2018)
CLA Canadian Library Association (2014-2018)
FSAC Film Studies Association of Canada (2009-2017)